Chuggin' Along!

I sort of wish this was more descriptive, I may be looking into a new app. (from Ovia Pregnancy app)

how far along: 16 weeks, 3 days

size of the baby: a dill pickle, delicious!

baby is: 3.5 oz this week and can probably hear my voice when I speak!

movement: None :(, I keep waiting for it, trying to keep very still in bed, but still nothing. I have to keep reminding myself that it is early and I need to be patient.

gender: I could find out! I could pay a woman in our town to perform an ultrasound and know the gender. But Jesse wants to wait until I'm 20 weeks and our doctor will do it, so I'll wait.

total weight gain: Actually nothing according to my home scale. I go to the doctor tomorrow though so I may have gained a pound or two. We will see.

symptoms: headaches and heartburn. I take Tums for my heartburn, which usually happens after dinner. I drink as much water as I can, but going to the bathroom 8 times a day is getting annoying.

stretch marks: None that I can see, I don't look for them though. I am so into being pregnant and a mother, if I get a stretch mark, so be it.

maternity clothes: I still have my maternity leggings and I still love them. But the weather where I live is creeping back into springtime. I'm hoping it warms up soon and I can get away with dresses more often. I've also started using the hair tie trick with my jeans.

  

sleep: Still good. Nothing to complain about really. I use my pregnancy pillow and it's fine.

missing: Not much. Though I was thinking about my first sip of alcohol after I give birth and that sounded good, hah!

cravings/aversions: MM chocolate milk and potatoes. I have to have chocolate milk every day, I just crave it so hard. I had a Nestle's chocolate milk from the gas station yesterday and it tasted just like the 10th grade, it was awesome.

cries: Oh the cries, I tear up all the time. I was watching the Disney tribute and Kermit the frog was singing the rainbow connection and I just burst into tears. Jesse was so alarmed!

Jesse is: doing well. We are working on getting the house de-cluttered and he talked about clearing out the soon-to-be nursery, which is so awesome!

best moments: Hmmm, probably will be tomorrow. I have my 16 week appointment and I'm sure we'll get to listen to the heartbeat again which is going to be so nice on my birthday!

not so best moment: the headaches. I am so sensitive as it is, I'm even more so now with this pregnancy. And not showing. It's giving me anxiety. I know I'm getting bigger, because I can feel my body rejecting my tight jeans, but I'm nowhere near showing like a pregnant woman.

looking forward to: My appointment tomorrow. I want to hear the heartbeat and schedule our 20 week ultrasound, I'll really have something to look forward to then!

BUMPDATE

how far along: 15 weeks, 3 days

size of the baby: an avocado! Which seems so big to me, but in reality is very small.

baby is: finished forming its genitalia! I would love to find out now what the gender is, but I believe the doctor will have us wait until I am 20 weeks to do the full anatomy scan.

movement: None yet. I've had people ask, but I don't think I've felt anything. I also don't know what I'm really feeling for.

gender: Ugh too soon to know! I want to know so badly, I feel like I'll connect even more with the baby once I know the gender and can feel it move around.

total weight gain: None that I can tell. My scale at home still says the same thing. I have an appointment next week so I'll see if I've gained anything and how much.

symptoms: headaches, abdominal pain, hunger. I've had a headache for 4 days straight, but that might be due to dehydration. I don't think I'm getting enough water, though I drink a ton.

stretch marks: I'm definitely going to get some on my boobs. I know it. They're getting bigger and itching.

maternity clothes: Yaaasss. I bought some maternity leggings at Target and they are so comfortable. I think I'll go shopping with my mom next month for some more maternity clothes. 

  

sleep: Sleep is good. Usually I'm pretty tired by 9-10pm and I sleep well, only getting up once to pee. Then I sleep until my alarm. The afternoons I get sleepy, but I find that if I get up and walk around, I'm ok.

missing: Nothing really. I eat what I want basically, except for soft cheeses. I've eaten lunchmeat. I eat medium steaks. 

cravings/aversions: Still chocolate milk. I love the stuff. Also steaks and potatoes. Potatoes any way are great. I love most starches, potatoes, pasta, rice.

cries: Not so much lately. I get down every now and then, but I don't cry as much anymore.

Jesse is: good! I told him I need some maternity leggings and he said, OK dear. He didn't even flinch. It was great.

best moments: maternity leggings, eating food at meal times. My nightly glass of chocolate milk is great too!

not so best moment: this lingering headache. I'm not sure how to fix it. I'm trying to drink a bunch of water and I'll probably change my contacts soon.

looking forward to: My belly and my appointment next week. It's on my birthday and I want all to go well. I don't think I'll have an ultrasound, but I can at least hear the heartbeat!

14 Weeks & Counting!

I am 14 weeks and 3 days today and feeling groovy!

how far along: 14 weeks, 3 days

size of the baby: a beet! Or a troll doll, or a mouse!

baby is: growing! I'm getting round ligament pain, which I'm taking as a good sign. Hopefully I'll pop out soon and really look pregnant.

movement: still too early for me. I've heard of people feeling as early as 12 weeks, but I am the rule, not the exception.

gender: not sure yet. Part of me still thinks it's a girl, but the other part is like, Jess, you have no idea.

total weight gain: Not sure? Since my last appointment I had gained 2 pounds. But I don't track myself. I feel bigger though.

symptoms: HUNGER. Oh dear the hunger. I wake up hungry, at 10:30 I'm hungry, at 12:30 I'm hungry, at 2:30 I'm hungry, on and on and on. I can never eat enough to feel hungry for more than 4 hours it seems.

stretch marks: Not that I can see. My larger-ish body is so prepared for this baby!

maternity clothes: None yet. I'd love to buy some maternity leggings, but that's just because my stomach is uncomfortable in the old ones. I have a feeling as soon as I pop, I'll want them no matter what.

  

sleep: Ah sleep. I love you. I get tired around 5:30-6 now and want to fall asleep on the couch but stop myself. Then by 9pm, I'm ready for sleeping. I usually sleep for 8.5-9 hours at night too.

missing: Nothing at the moment. Just food. I want all the food and I miss it as soon as it's eaten hah.

cravings/aversions: Craving chocolate milk. MMMMM YUM. I drink a large glass of it before I go to sleep at night. It helps me to feel full all night and not wake up with nausea. I'm into Asian food as well right now, I made chicken with cashews last night and it was very good. Something about the tangy sauces, it's not very rich and no cheese (because I miss bleu cheese and feta and brie a lot)

cries: Definitely. I get in these moods and I just have to cry. I'll feel teary and crappy until I let it all out. I also cry at songs and anything to do with a mother's love for a child. I just can't even handle how much I love and worry about my child.

Jesse is: doing well. I'm feeling better so he is being better. He isn't as worried about me and what I'm eating or drinking. Mostly he's worried about finances and making sure we are saving enough.

best moments: Going a couple days without throwing up. My record is 4 so far. Trying to get that number up though. Also, announcing our pregnancy! We took photos with my friend last week and we announced on Saturday. It was so fun and I love all the pictures. I'm just so happy we can finally say it!

not so best moment: Eating too much (as if that's a thing). I sort of gorged myself at Red Lobster last week, think 3 biscuits, salad, coconut shrimp, potatoes. I felt awful the whole night, fell asleep at 9pm and threw up the next morning. I need to eat better than that, and not wait to eat anymore. 

looking forward to: Popping out! Getting to wear maternity clothes and meeting my nephew. My sister-in-law is due in a couple weeks and I seriously cannot wait to meet the booger and hold him and imagine the cousins playing together and growing up with each other.

It's Been a Minute

I wrote this post a long time ago but never posted, but now that I'm past the scary part, I'll post!


Months, really. Since I've posted, that is.

I've been busy!

Since we last spoke:

Jesse and I got a dog! Her name is Lucy and we got her from a local rescue. She is wonderful and sweet and perfectly dogalicious. She loves to chase squirrels, bark at other doggies until she makes freinds with them, chase my baby Franklin around, and lay in the sun. Play with her toys, eat bones, and get pet. Basically all the things a dog should do.


We talked about getting a dog for a VERY long time. I emailed about Lucy on a Tuesday and she was ours by Friday! It was definitely an adjustment. I get up a half an hour earlier now to take her for a walk before work, but I think she has adjusted quite nicely and we are really loving on her.

Her passed out after the dog park one night

My sweet baby

I got my real estate license! Yes, I am now licensed as a real estate salesperson in the state of Maryland. Basically, I did it for work, and I'm not exactly active, in that I don't take people out to look at houses and earn commissions. But I'm happy it's done and over with, and that I can take this wherever I go. Which hopefully means I could be taking people to look at houses and earning commissions (and all the other difficult things that come between those two things) someday!


Third, but definitely not least.
GUYS.
GUYSSSSSSSS.

I'm pregnant.

5 and a half weeks today. Which is early, I'm aware. But I took a test on Monday and it was my first ever positive pregnancy test in 2.5 years. I've taken so many tests, been disappointed so many times. This test was like God smiling at me and saying, I knew it would happen, it just took time.

Jesse and I sat together and cried for 10 minutes. Then I got up, got ready for work, took another one and it was positive too!

Then I took one when I got home and it was positive. Then I took one yesterday and it was positive. I'm addicted to seeing the word "Pregnant" on a test.

I was in shock

I also got a blood test done. Positive. And strongly so, my level was 6,681.

Above all things, I am thankful. I pray to God every morning to thank him and every evening to thank him. Thank you for this blessing. Thank you for another day with this blessing. This child growing inside me. This child who is now the size of a little peppercorn, but will one day be a full grown child, a baby I can hold and cuddle and love so much. I can't wait.

We told Jesse's brother and sister-in-law (the pregnant one). They are the only people that know for now and will be the only people for at least a couple more weeks. I have an ultrasound at 7 weeks (because I am paranoid and cannot bear the thought of waiting until 8 weeks to see if there is a baby in my uterus). After that, if all goes well which I pray it does, we will tell my parents. I CANNOT wait to see the look on my mother's face when I tell her about her first grandchild.

So that's about it for now. I'm praying this magical baby sticks and that we have a beautiful baby in 8 months.

12 Week Bumpdate

how far along: 12 weeks, 4 days

size of the baby: a ripe apricot. I think it's so funny that they give the description a "ripe" apricot, a "Maine" blueberry. I have no idea what this means, honestly. So I'll stick with, baby is about 2.5 inches long and .5 ounces!

baby is: there? I'm not showing, I can't feel it. This week has been a roller coaster really.

movement: still way too early to feel anything.

gender: still convinced it's a girl. Though I'm not crazing sweets which is something I've heard with girls. Though I have been getting very sick (nausea) and I feel so unattractive, I've heard girls can suck the beauty out of you.

total weight gain: Still not paying attention. We have a doctors appointment tomorrow though so I'm sure I'll see a difference. 

symptoms: Nausea, vomiting, headaches, frequent urination, sore and tender breasts, hormonal crying, fatigue. The list goes on and on and on.

stretch marks: I don't think so? I tried looking at my hips this morning but I couldn't tell if they were stretch marks or lines from my pajamas while I slept.

maternity clothes: Not really. Though I am wearing leggings more. We had 3 feet of snow dumped on us the past weekend and I didn't go into work for 4 days. The whole time I wore sweats and leggings and big t-shirts and sweatshirts. That felt awesome. When I had to wear pants for the first time yesterday, I had to unbutton them, they were so uncomfortable.

  

sleep: I wish I could sleep well. I used to be able to sleep through the night without any interruptions. Now I get up to pee, I can't get comfortable, my back hurts. I hate it.

missing: Feeling like myself I guess. I had a huge cry last night because I just can't wait to feel normal again and I'm so tired of getting sick and being the wet blanket.

cravings/aversions: Beef, if you can believe that. I was actually able to make dinner the past few nights so we've had steak and burgers and I feel like I want more. I want all the steak.

cries: Last night I couldn't stop crying. I feel like I'm just surviving and not living. It's awful.

Jesse is: really trying. He's being sweet at times, but then he lets it slide and he gets annoyed with me. I keep telling him I can't control the way I feel, I wish I could feel better. I know he's just as sick of the first trimester as I am.

best moments: Hitting 12 weeks was good. This weekend, being able to spend time with Jesse and not feel my symptoms so harshly, eating real dinners, Living in sweats. If I could do that all the time, I'd be golden.

not so best moment: Writing this post? I feel like all I've done is complain. I feel like such a hypocrite. I wished and prayed and hoped for so long that we would get pregnant. But honestly I just wish I could speed up these next 28 weeks, have the baby, and not have to feel pregnant anymore. I'm praying so hard that the feeling goes away after I hit my second trimester.

looking forward to: The end of the first trimester. Showing, having to wear maternity clothes, feeling the baby move, finding out the gender, my baby shower, setting up the nursery. So many second and third trimester things. I want to say so long to this dumb first trimester and start feeling good!

11 Weeks and Counting

how far along: 11 Weeks, 1 day.

size of the baby: A Brussels sprout. It's funny because the app says, "baby is the size of a Brussels sprout, but hopefully more well liked!" Well, I love Brussels sprouts, so take that Ovia App.

baby is: 1.5 inches. Still so tiny, can't believe how fast it grows though.

movement: Apparently it's moving around, doing flips and such, but I haven't felt anything of course.

gender: I keep thinking it is a girl. I had a dream it was a girl, I think about it in my head like it's a girl, and the Chinese chart said it was a girl.

total weight gain: I haven't really been paying attention to my weight. I think I'm still at the same place I have always been, or even a little less.

symptoms: Lots of nausea, headaches, fatigue. Also the girls are very sore, I have pregnancy brain, and now pimples! Last week I had the worst pimple, it was so disgusting.

stretch marks: None still. At least that I've noticed. I'm not lotioning like I should though, I need to start.

maternity clothes: None so far, but I think about it constantly. Anything that presses too hard on my stomach makes me feel awful. I want to wear giant clothes that don't show my bloated tummy either.

  

sleep: Oh yes. I want to sleep all the time. I took a 2 hour nap yesterday and it didn't even feel good. I think I just want one really good night sleep. 

missing: Being able to eat normally. I can't really eat tomatoes/tomato based foods because it just makes me feel sick. I threw up out of the car the other night and I just can't wait until this nausea dissipates.

cravings/aversions: Aversion? Tomatoes. Anything sweet really. Though I would like some ice cream. But I think once I get it, I won't want it anymore. Craving? Nothing really. Cheese.

cries: Yesterday. I had woken up from my nap, had a huge headache and was just trying to get stuff done before Jesse got home from work at 9. I missed him terribly, he came in the door and called me a crazy pregnant lady. Cue waterworks.

Jesse is: really trying. He's being sweet at times, but then he lets it slide and he gets annoyed with me. I keep telling him I can't control the way I feel, I wish I could feel better. I know he's just as sick of the first trimester as I am.

best moments: Getting through this trimester. I can't handle the nausea much longer. I just want to be able to wake up and not feel like dying.

not so best moment: Just throwing up all the time. Throwing up before my in-laws came over for breakfast, making Jesse pull the car over to throw up, throwing up water. I'm so tired.

looking forward to: The end of the first trimester. I know it's probably silly to wish time would move faster, I know I need to cherish being pregnant. But I just want to feel normal and be normal and do normal stuff again!

7 Weeks

how far along: 7 Weeks, 1 Day. According to my app.

size of the baby: A raspberry! A cute, tiny little delicious raspberry.

 

baby is: Over half an inch long! It sounds SO tiny, almost like it's not even there.

 

movement: No movement, too early obviously. I'm moving pretty slow though. Very tired and very nauseous.

 

gender: No clue, don't care. I mean, if I'm choosing, I would love a boy. But I just care if it's healthy and happy.

 

total weight gain: Actually, with all this nausea and puking going on, I haven't gained any weight. I haven't been too diligent in keeping track but I am at 146 this morning.

symptoms: So much nausea. I spent the last two days (Saturday & Sunday) eitehr in bed or on the couch. Watching The Office and Selling New York on Netflix. I'm tired, ta-tas hurt, stomach is hurting from all the nausea, I pee constantly and I can smell everything.

stretch marks: None that I can see, but I haven't been checking very hard. I'm sure if I see one, I'll be all over it, but now it's not really a concern. Mostly my nipples have gotten darker and larger.

 

maternity clothes: None but I hate wearing jeans. They're so constricting and I just can't seem to want to look nice, mostly I want to be comfortable.

  

sleep: Yes PLEASE. If I could be in bed all day err day, I would.

 

missing: Feeling like myself. Can that be a thing? I really feel like my body has been hijacked and I can't wait until this dang first trimester is over and I can go back to actually caring about food.

 

cravings/aversions: Basically all food sounds gross except for bread/carbs. I live off saltines and ginger ale. Hence the weight loss.

 

cries: Jesse was joking around with me the other day and said "Is the rest of your pregnancy just going to suck for me?" referencing my inability to do basically anything around the house, and I lost it. I screamed and cried because how DARE he think he has it so difficult when I'm the one with the raging hormones and morning (let's be real, all day) sickness.

 

Jesse is: so supportive. He basically does anything I ask, gets me whatever food I need, takes care of everything around the house and comforts me when I'm crying, nauseated, tired, everything. He also bought me a gorgeous rocking chair and I just sat in it and cried for 10 minutes.

 

best moments: Telling my parents. My mom just hugged me and cried and said oh my god, oh my god, over and over.

not so best moment: Last night. I attempted to take my prenatal, because I've heard it's a lot better if you take it at night, and I tried to swallow and my gag reflex and nausea made me puke. It was awful. Goodbye lasagna, hope we meet again in my second trimester.

looking forward to: Tomorrow is our first ultrasound! I'm super nervous. I can't even feel excited because I can't even believe there is something in there. But I pray pray pray there is!