Like A BriefCase: New Year, New Me?

Well, it's been a month. Since I last blogged. In case you hadn't noticed?

December was busy. Busy at work, busy at home. Busy decorating, and buying, and wrapping, and working, and being with family, and baking cookies, and just living.

And I won't lie, I wasn't motivated. My life isn't anything special. I go to work, I come home. I spend time with my friends and family. I eat food and I sleep. Gosh, typing it just bored the crap out of me.

Still not pregnant. Maybe we're trying? I don't know. We're of course doing the deed, but in my mind, it isn't trying. I think it is in Jesse's, as he keeps bugging me when I'm ovulating, but I simply don't feel like trying anymore. I'm tired. Of tracking things and checking the mucus (overshare...) and taking ovulation tests, and taking my temperature. I'm just tired. So I don't do it anymore. We do things when we want to, and I'm not going to worry about it. I'm a tad indifferent about the whole thing, but that's OK. It's January and I need to focus on other things.

Like the fact that I went to the doctors on Friday and was 6 pounds over what I already don't want to be. I need to seriously incorporate the gym into my daily routine. But how on Earth do people get up, go to work, go to the gym, go home and cook dinner and then find energy to do all the other "living" things? Like spend time with your husband and kitty cats? Not sure. I don't want to kill myself trying to live longer. Seems a tad counterproductive.

Or the fact that I haven't cooked dinner in like a month! OK, not true, I cooked Christmas Eve dinner, but not since then! Isn't that sick? Ugh, we have been eating out way too much, so I gained 6 pounds, and now I need to lose weight. Vicious cycle.

ALSO, I need to attend church more often. The last 2 Sundays, I've either been feeling awful, or just really tired, and wholly unmotivated. So we don't go, and then I immediately regret my decision.

Thankfully, we have started attending a bible study with 2 other couples that attend church. I've never read much of the bible, and this is helping. We are on Romans right now, and I'm learning. Slowly, but I'm learning. Sometimes I have to reread what we read in the study because I don't understand the first time. But everyone does that right?

Ok, wrapping this up. Exercise more, eat a lot less ice cream, and read the bible. Lofty, Jess.

Don't worry, I will have abandoned these by February 1.

OH! And now a photo dump.